Namaste from the Central Coast of NSW. I hear you. Loss can certainly be a catalyst for change. In recent weeks I was honoured and privileged to accompany my elderly mum on the last of her most glorious unfolding so I have empathy for your journey. I know two things I have not been with myself since and that is kind and gentle, so I would just like to encourage you to be that for yourself as these days and weeks ahead evolve. Blessings.